I Can Never Appreciate You Enough - Musings On Death And Life

So much in this life is replaceable.... My clothes, my car, that electronic device I devote so much of my time to.

With all this constant replacing, I sometimes forget that not everything is so easily replaced. Those minutes I spent listening to my babies giggle, the time spent with my mother remembering my childhood, the hour my sister and I danced around each other's hearts together... These are the moments I can never replace. And to think, those experiences were all just a "smart" phone notification away from never happening.

Last week my 24 year old cousin died suddenly. 

It's so different to mourn an unexpected death. I was so sad recently when my 84 year old grandfather passed. He was living in hospice care. We had time to prepare... Time to say goodbye.

This time, not only has a sweet and beautiful person been stollen from us, but we were also robbed of the chance to say farewell... To say I love you... To give one last hug.

To say, "Danny you will be missed," is insufficient. But what else is there? I am at a loss of words.

I wish I'd had more chances to share my world with yours. I love you Danny